I started taking stimulants a month ago for ADHD, and wow. I mean, some of the effects were expected - the increased alertness, the focus, the slight uptick in motivation (I haven’t experienced the full ‘GO GO TAKE CARE OF NORMAL THINGS’ burst that some friends and online folk have had, but I’ve had a little motivation boost, and I’m grateful for every little bit).
But the counterintuitive effects? That I sleep easier and better now than I have in years? That my temper is much reduced because it doesn’t bang at my head like a jackhammer? That I can sit down and relax, because my focus isn’t darting to every little distraction? That I can listen to people talk without wanting to bash my head in because listening is idleness and idleness drove me crazy? The exact opposite of things that I would have expected from taking a stimulant, before I learned that I had ADHD and got put on them?
The human mind is whack
Medicine is fucking witchcraft
That behavior is learned, for the most part. The meds just help you follow through and stay on track to actually complete “normal” things.
Procrastination is normal. Starting to work on cleaning a room but somehow end up sorting screws in your neighbors garage is not normal.
Meds have limits and they aren’t magic. They are fucking awesome, but still, not magic.
There is a ton of stuff that you will need to sort out in your own brain over the next few months or years, TBH. Some ADHD’isms run deep. Some issues are correctable, some are not but that is for you to figure out on your own.