do your 40 hours then turn your brain off

🤣🤣 I wish

But logically you are correct it’s not like I’m going to earn more if I run myself into the ground.

The work itself is interesting in that there are new issues, questions or commercial options that people come up with more often than not. So the role itself I like, but the burnout bit…

For the last few months the number of things our rather small team has been asked to do has roughly doubled, so I am working longer hours and taking fewer breaks. I have been having dreams/nightmares about work, having anxiety when I’m not at work because I am thinking about things that haven’t been done, unable to sleep, appetite changes, frustration and snapping at my family, etc. I know I haven’t been in the best place mentally during this time. All of these things have clouded over the elements of the job I enjoy, because instead of being able to think about those or let my mind wander around to consider various options I am forced to make snap decisions and work on outputs instead of the thinking bits of the job.

My boss tries to support but he is under the same pressure and can’t do much about it. My coworkers are okay.

It feels important and I don’t know if that is the problem or not. Everything I do contributes to the top line of a large business but really my actions are a drop in the ocean of a vast and complex system and I am annoyed with myself for letting it get to me this much.

Is it? I feel like people think I know where I am going but it’s not that… I just don’t like feeling stuck

Even with meds I can get overwhelmed when there are too many competing goals and I know there isn’t enough time to get them all done. Too much energy is spent trying to mitigate the fallout from the ones that don’t work out.

This is really well put, good way to unravel some of that stuff going on in my head. Thanks

I agree, being forced to do something, or the monotony of daily life is a killer.

I’m not in the states, but definitely looking into options.

Best of luck

Yes… I know exactly what you mean!

I had tried to carve out a Lean/Process improvement role for myself but it didn’t work out.

Looks like I might get to move into M&A soon which would be good though, new stuff to learn and try and all that jazz.

Thanks for the insights !!